First, Eric and I have had some very serious talks with tears and finally feel like we are getting things figured out. We have started to get the family prayer and family scripture study both morning and night. We have only missed a day or so due to Eric working graves but I am even figuring it out when it is just me and the kids.
Secondly, We have had some major sickness here which has been challenging. Last Sunday Eric was so worn out from working five 12 hour days and also catching a col that I told him to stay home and that I would take both kids to church by myself. Now these is a major feat for me since I have never done it and mother nature decided to deliver some much needed snow the night before. It went pretty well but was also disheartening when it seemed as though I just couldn't do it all. Mackenzie was restless, Hyrum was fussy and all I wanted to was cry. I can truly say I missed my husband, but I was grateful that he was able to get a few hours of uninterrupted sleep.
Third, I am really struggling with associated with the women in my neighborhood. I have always been a little shy. Partly because I have been on the receiving end of some pretty harsh criticism. This wouldn't bother me except for the fact that it was unfounded or quick judgements against me that are false. Sometimes I wonder if anyone is willing to see me for me. However, I am not going to have amity party. I have decided that my family comes first no matter what.
Fourth, I had a major answer to prayers this week. As you all know I am in school. What you may not know is that it is the most painful thing in the world for me to be doing right now. It is really hard when I am at school and see other mothers there with their children and mine are at home with their daddy or their nana. All I want is to stay home, clean and organize my house, read and play with my kids. However, I know that I need to finish this degree so that I can truly be the helpmeet I desire to be to my husband.
Finally, I have lost some more weight! I don't keep a scale in the house, due to the fact I would be on it about twenty times in a day but I have found that some of my pre-pregancy close are starting to fit again! This is great because if any of you know me, I really dislike clothes shopping for myself. I love doing it for the kids and Eric but it is pulling teeth for me. I am really trying to watch what I eat and exercise more. Now if I could just get the sleep that I need. There always seems to be something i need to do. I really don't realize how tired I am until I stop for a minute. Maybe that is the key not stopping. Well that is all for now. I will post cute stuff about the kids soon (Eric borrowed my phone). Have wonderful rest of you day!
