I feel the need to write a little more about Eric. You see I get the feeling that certain people underestimate him and also judge him because of the fact that right now he is not working a whole lot. It is not that he doesn't want to work, it is that he is trying to finish an internship and also find a more stable job.
Eric Jacobi Winslow is the sweetest, most patient man I have ever met. He is so willing to help me in anyway possible, which can be hard because I am fiercely independent. He loves to play with his daughter and is trying so hard to teach her in a way that is divine. He is willing to go to fabric stores, shoe shopping and a whole slew of other outings with me that most men, including my dad and brothers would not be caught dead doing. He is becoming an amazing cleaner and can actually cook more than just top roman and mac and cheese. Although the way he does those we could live pretty happily if we had to. I know in my heart that everything his does is for the benefit of his whole family.
This past Tuesday we had a Relief Society meeting in our ward. Well once I remember, pregnant blond here, I really wanted to go. There was one minor problem, because of all the doctor's appointments, school and such I have been gone a lot. Mackenzie did not want me to leave, which I understood. So even though Eric could handle it, he saw how it was torturing her and I and offered to come along. He spent two hours in the hall of the church walking around and trying to keep up with Mackenzie so I could try and enjoy my time with other women. This is the man I married. Someone who is so in tune with his family's needs that he is willing to do whatever it takes for all of us to be happy and healthy.
To the nay-sayer, I have to say you have no right to judge him. What you see on the surface is not all that you get. Eric is a very deep man who is the man of my dreams. He is the only person who has been able to fill a gaping hole in my heart. All my life I have felt alone and isolated at times. However, ever since I met him I have learned so much about what it means to be with someone and have someone love you for you. He never puts me down. In fact he is the only man who tells me I am beautiful and I believe it. Even when I am 35 weeks pregnant and feel like a torpedo about ready to launch. It may have taken us three years to get married but it was worth it. Our lives are anything but perfect. We have our differences, partly because we are both the oldest and very stubborn. However, we never let it fester. We try to work through it in such a way as to elevate the other towards the Lord. We never go to bed angry and we also try to forgive. I am so grateful for Eric and would not trade him for the world.
In the world's view there is still a lot he has to learn, but I know because he has the most important lessons down he will learn it. And in doing so become an even more amazing husband and father. He may not know a lot about yard work or home improvement but he is learning and loving it. Well I have poured my heart out enough for one evening. It feels good to finally but this thoughts and feelings to paper though. Especially as we begin the major countdown for the arrival of our new little bundle of joy. I am so excited for Eric to be able to hold a newborn baby again. May the Lord bless you and yours as he has us. And may you find comfort in his loving arms as I know I have through out my life.
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