The Harsher Side of Life

So I needed to express some thoughts so that I may be able to sleep a little bit more peacefully. I am currently taking an education class in technology, where we have been required to come up with a final group project within our content area. Mine being history and being grouped with two guys, the decision was made to focus on the Holocaust. While I can handle it old feelings of disbelief and dismay have resurfaced. This time they are more personal because of where I am in life. I look at my two little children and wonder how the mothers who were victims dealt with the loss of their children and even spouses. Then I become even more thankful for the gospel for I know that someday they will all be together again. I can not understand anyone hurting a little child. They are innocent and pure. Even when Mackenzie writes on the wall with a tube of destine or Hyrum screams at the top of his lungs for food. I know that these precious little spirits are just that precious and to be treasured. They bring with them so much that they wish to share with all who are in their lives. With this need to research the dark side of the past, I truly appreciate the knowledge of the gospel even more.

We are currently working on a project called a web quest, where the students in small groups will be required to come to the conclusion of what kind of justice is needed in the aftermath of the atrocities of the Holocaust. While I know that man's justice can never fully heal the wounds that were created by the cruelty of man, I know that in the eternities our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ can and will heal the wounds of the past. It is hard to understand why these incredibly horrible things happen. However, we need to remember that we have been given agency to choose for ourselves between good and evil. With this agency, there needs to be opposition in all things, which means that not everyone will choose to follow the eternal truths of God. However, no matter what horror, depravity and evil are perpetrated on this earth, our father in heaven has given all of us a chance to be cleanses through his only begotten son, Jesus Christ. Christ has truly felt all of our pain, sorrow and sins; including what was done to many helpless and innocent, decent people during the dark days of World War 2. I know that these innocent people are now at rest and will have the chance to live again. I hope I can hold on to these truths as I delve further into this darkness and that I will be able to keep the hope and light of Christ within me at all times, and in all places. May you each feel his love and comfort too is my hope and prayer.

We have entered the princess phase

So, Mackenzie has been a pretty diverse child. She loves, dinosaurs, trains, princesses, bug including butterflies and the colors pink and purple. I love the fact that my little princess loves so many different things. It makes buying toys for rewards and holidays so much more fun. However, she has discovered the joy of dressing up as a princess. She loves to wear her princess crowns all day and rock her sullala babies (a.ka. Cinderella). Also she is the best big sister. She is not much bigger than Hyrum, only 26 lbs and 2 oz according to the doctor on Tuesday. However, she loves to try and hold her 13 or so pound brother. It is pretty cute but he definitely swallows her. As of Thursday she has started to run around the house looking for me whenever Hyrum starts to cry. Hyrum loves his sissy and how she makes him smile and laugh. I can not believe he will be four months tomorrow! He is already teething, trying to talk and trying so hard to roll over. He can get onto his side and almost all the way over but then gets stuck. This evening he figured out how to move his little body through wriggling and squirming in order to reach his sister's cardboard box to chew on. Of course we took the box away but were so proud of him for the movement. Where does the time go! I do have to say though I love it when he giggles and then Mackenzie laughs. It is so hard not to smile and laugh right along with them.